This trip was going to be my way to take her on one last road trip with me, in spirit, and spread her ashes in each country I passed through. See, I loved taking road trips with Oreo, and I'd planned on taking another one with her in a sidecar on the motorcycle. I'm still working on that plan, and that plan is what was keeping me going and my spirits intact until today. The day she passed away I made the decision to sell everything I own, take my cats to live with my dad, and ride my motorcycle (which I barely know how to ride) through all of South and Central America and relocate to Canada. I was out of the country on business, and still haven't forgiven myself for not being there with her during her last days. On February 12th my best friend in the world, my reason for living, my dog Oreo passed away. Since that day I've noticed the incredible change in my ability to handle things, until February 12th. Thankfully that person is still in my life as a friend today, likely because after that bender I realized how much of a problem I had.
The relationship, though extremely important to me and my growth as a person, ended last year in November and because I'd started drinking during that relationship my abusive relationship with alcohol continued and I fell into a terrible bender. I started to get things together in 2022, was abstaining from drinking subconsciously, and then I met someone. When I first moved I was extremely excited, but when I arrived the loneliness and distance from family and friends hit hard and so I hit the bottle just as hard.
In 2021 I uprooted my life and moved to another country with my dog and two cats as part of a promotion.
Honestly, I've had a particularly rough six months or so, but I'll start at the beginning. Fair warning, this is going to be a fairly long read. I'm posting here today because I'm having a particularly rough day, and felt it would be good to talk to someone about it. This is my first post here, but I wanted to start with thanking all of you, I'm over three months sober in no small part thanks to this community.
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